I didn't think. I didn't want to think. That maybe you weren't so bad...
[It may have been a rhetorical question, but whether Shinji wants or needs apologies, Ken needs to say them. Nothing feels right anymore, and even if apologizing isn't going to make it right, at least it's one less thing that's going to be hanging over his head for the rest of his life.
He was so wrapped up in what he thought was right that he missed the most important parts.]
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[He stops, swallows. Takes a breath.]
I didn't think. I didn't want to think. That maybe you weren't so bad...
[It may have been a rhetorical question, but whether Shinji wants or needs apologies, Ken needs to say them. Nothing feels right anymore, and even if apologizing isn't going to make it right, at least it's one less thing that's going to be hanging over his head for the rest of his life.
He was so wrapped up in what he thought was right that he missed the most important parts.]