[It doesn't exactly make him feel less like he's an idiot who got someone killed, that's for sure.
But it's an easy enough conclusion that that - isn't what Shinji's telling him for, that this isn't meant to kick off another bout of Ken feeling like an awful person. Though privately, Ken definitely still feels like an awful person, for getting someone killed not once but twice, for wanting to kill someone who was looking out for him (in some weird awkward way) the entire time -
He can feel his hands starting to shake again, and he leans forward enough to plant them on the ground.]
I'm sorry.
[It comes out quietly the first time, barely above a whisper, but that doesn't feel good enough, and he takes a choking breath and blurts it out again, louder.]
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But it's an easy enough conclusion that that - isn't what Shinji's telling him for, that this isn't meant to kick off another bout of Ken feeling like an awful person. Though privately, Ken definitely still feels like an awful person, for getting someone killed not once but twice, for wanting to kill someone who was looking out for him (in some weird awkward way) the entire time -
He can feel his hands starting to shake again, and he leans forward enough to plant them on the ground.]
I'm sorry.
[It comes out quietly the first time, barely above a whisper, but that doesn't feel good enough, and he takes a choking breath and blurts it out again, louder.]
I'm sorry!